One of the biggest fears of beginning any journey is the unknown. We do not know where the journey will take us and that can be quite scary. What will we uncover? What will we find along the way? The journey is as amazing as the final destination. We learn with each step. We learn we have the ability to go in any direction we choose. That direction is very much of our own accord.
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
A moment that changed my tears.
I was sad.
I was distraught about life.
Yesterday, the phone kept ringing.
My mother, my friend.
Chattering, chattering, chattering.
While I was consumed with my life.
Yesterday, I sat with a friend.
I was venting.
I was hurting.
I talked his ear off.
Yesterday, the phone rang again.
It was my friend’s mother.
His father had shot himself.
Silence.
One single moment.
Yesterday, I realized,
My worries were no longer significant.
My tears fell quickly for someone else.
Yesterday, he would change.
His father’s life,
Was more significant than the problems
I thought were important.
Yesterday, I sat in silence
As my friend left for his impending doom.
Yesterday, I cried for someone other than myself.
For the first time in five years, I looked to the sky,
And prayed for life.
Monday, June 27, 2005
A Letter.
I am writing to apologize for neglecting you for the last few years. I am sorry that I have sat on the sideline and watched you go by as I sit in my own frenzy of overcommitment, emotional upheaval and dramatic intervals. So many times, I've missed you. So many times, I've wondered what it would be like to know you again. But, I've had my reasons to keep my distance. I had to go inside of myself and find out why I was put here to begin with.
In the last three years, I've needed the break. Being alone, being a spectator instead of a mad participant has given me the appreciation I once lacked. I now know how important you are to me.
You are the one relationship I cannot ignore. You are the one relationship that I must strive to have consistently in my everyday routine. And you are the one thing I can count on everyday.
So, I am ready to return to the land of the living. I am ready to participate with an open mind and an open heart.
I hope you are ready to jump back in and let me show you who I've become and how much I've changed. I do love you with such passion and zeal, that I couldn't be me without you.
Love,
Kim
Friday, June 24, 2005
In one fleeting moment...
Monday, June 20, 2005
Quote of the week.
-Mahatma Gandhi
Thursday, June 16, 2005
Walking in Sober Shoes.
So, I no longer need the ridiculous culmination of my early recovery. I'm over it. Shoes are shoes and my dog eats most of them anyway. So, if anyone is looking for gently used size 9US Jimmy Choos, let me know, they are still in the box. I have my own pair that have grown into the perfect fit.
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
The Four Agreements.
From the Four Agreements-
Everything we do is based on agreements we have made. In these agreements we tell
ourselves who we are, what everyone else is, how to act, what is possible, and
what is impossible. What we have agreed to believe creates what we experience.
When these agreements come from fear, blocks and obstacles develop keeping us from realizing our greatest potential.
Based on ancient Toltec wisdom , the Four Agreements offer a powerful code of
conduct that can rapidly transform our lives and our work into a new experience of effectiveness, balance and self supporting behavior.
Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.
DON'T TAKE ANYTHING PERSONALLY
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won't be the victim of needless suffering.
DON'T MAKE ASSUMPTIONS
Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want.
Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness, and dram With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.
ALWAYS DO YOUR BEST
Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgement, self-abuse, and regret.
The Four Agreements Site
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