Monday, March 27, 2006

She let go.

"She let go. Without a thought or a word, she let go.

She let go of the fear. She let go of the judgments. She let go of the confluence of opinions swarming around her head. She let go of the committee of indecision within her. She let go of all the 'right' reasons. Wholly and completely, without hesitation or worry, she just let go.
She didn't ask anyone for advice. She didn't read a book on how to let go... She didn't search the scriptures. She just let go. She let go of all of the memories that held her back. She let go of all of the anxiety that kept her from moving forward. She let go of the planning and all of the calculations about how to do it just right.

She didn't promise to let go. She didn't journal about it. She didn't write the projected date in her Day-Timer. She made no public announcement and put no ad in the paper. She didn't check the weather report or read her daily horoscope. She just let go.

She didn't analyze whether she should let go. She didn't call her friends to discuss the matter. She didn't do a five-step Spiritual Mind Treatment. She didn't call the prayer line. She didn't utter one word. She just let go.

No one was around when it happened. There was no applause or congratulations. No one thanked her or praised her. No one noticed a thing. Like a leaf falling from a tree, she just let go.
There was no effort. There was no struggle. It wasn't good and it wasn't bad. It was what it was, and it is just that.

In the space of letting go, she let it all be. A small smile came over her face. A light breeze blew through her. And the sun and the moon shone forevermore."
- Ernest Holmes




stacymax said...

Thank you for this latest post - I am in recovery too and this is a cool thing to see first thing this morning. Take care. -Stacy

TwistedTripper said...

The post makes the process of letting go seems so easy....Hopefully the process will be as graceful for me :). I really liked your Creative Recovery site. Wish you the best in ongoing recovery.


Clifford Duffy said...

letting go is/was wonderful

Kristin said...

Hugs...I applaud you!

Trudging said...

Very cool

AAwoken said...

very, very nice.

Anonymous said...

Thank you so much for this posting I have printed it and read it many times b/c it sums my feelings about alcohol and giving it all up quietly so eloquently and honestly. Today I am worrying about an envent I must attend where ther will be drinking for celebration and I am worried about getting through it sober. I know that everyone there isn't focused on me and that helps-as does this little piece of writing so again, thank you!

tkdjunkie said...

Thank you for sharing this. I really needed to read this today.

Anonymous said...

I also really needed this today...well actually to be honest I need it every day.

SCoUt said...

simply fabulous. Thank you.

Anonymous said...

That was absoulutely beautiful. That is exactly how I am becoming sober.